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|A new leaf...|
|05/18/01 at 11:36:37|
The path to peace, the path to truth, the path to Jannah...
The path to Islam.
The question for me, unfortunately, is not "when" I entered this path, but rather, [i]have[/i] I entered it yet? Am I on the Siraatul Mustaqeem, or am I simply fooling myself? You see for me, the path to Islam was not one easily recognized. Since I was a small child I have been praying regularly, fasting during the months of Ramadan and *more or less* obeying my parents. ;) I stopped wearing shorts when I was 9, I hadn't had a boyfriend since kindergarten ;) and I *never* *ever* prayed with nail polish on. So I figured myself set. I knew I wasn't necessarily the *best* Muslim, but who was, right?? I didn't want to be a Sheikh...I just wanted to do what I had to do to scrape by. My motto could have been:
[i]"Perfection is over-rated, thats why mediocrity was created!"[/i]
My biggest flaw?
Pure and simple: Satisfaction.
I was satisfied with a job half done. I was satisfied with the fact that I didn't know all there was to know. I was satisfied with my life--in fact, I was *proud* of my life. I actually had the gall to think of myself as a *good* Muslim. And then it started happening, all because of a verse I came upon from the Quran that undoubtedly changed my entire perspective.
[i]"Ye are the best of peoples, evolved for mankind, enjoining what is right, forbidding what is wrong, and believing in Allah." 3:110[/i]
We are the best of peoples. Not the averagest, not mediocrist, not even the above averagest. We are the best. And I started realizing, at this point, it was the duty of every Muslim to exemplify this verse and everything it asserts. Unfortunately, or rather fortunately for me, this meant that I could no longer be satisfied with a less than perfect job. I prayed to Allah to remove the arrogance from my heart and replace it with humility. Instead of actively "preaching" the little Islam I did know, I started focusing more on strengthening my Iman from the inside out, and on building my knowledge of Islam. I was hesitant to speak to the youth, knowing my knowledge was lacking and incomplete at best. I stopped looking down on girls who didn't wear hijab and I started looking up to those who had the decency to respect their parents. I realized that their was a strong spiritual side to Islam that went hand in hand with the fiqh and shariah.
And so while I may have found this beautiful path, I pray to Allah that I *never* allow myself to think that I am set, to be satisfied with the level of my iman or understanding of my deen. Life is a struggle, and I pray to Allah that I *never* stop struggling.
|Re: A new leaf...|
|05/18/01 at 11:51:25|
Life is a struggle, and I pray to Allah that I *never* stop struggling.
Ameen! That was an excellent account, thanks for sharing.
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